Perhaps....

The first girl, and the next, and the next, and the one after that...

all saw me a different way.

The first didn't care.

The second was just trying something new.

The third said i was a mistake.

And the fourth, idk what she thinks of me...

But i fear i am ruining her life slowly...

And it hurts... To protect her, i may need to hurt her.

But i will try to fix things, and if i can't...

Well, i'm done trying.

I'm fairly certain there isn't really "Someone" out there just for me.

I've slowly learned that i hurt people without even trying.

Perhaps i would have had better luck if i was meant to be with someone...

But... i'm not so sure anymore...

All i know is that when she has had enough, she will leave

And I...

I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me.