What do we do?

What happens when what we want is far out of our grasp?

When who we wanted is nothing but a memory?

When what we once dreamed is a distant nightmare?

Who knew that reality was just a terrible dream, and if your just a dream... then i am just a dreamer.

Perhaps....

The first girl, and the next, and the next, and the one after that...

all saw me a different way.

The first didn't care.

The second was just trying something new.

The third said i was a mistake.

And the fourth, idk what she thinks of me...

But i fear i am ruining her life slowly...

And it hurts... To protect her, i may need to hurt her.

But i will try to fix things, and if i can't...

Well, i'm done trying.

I'm fairly certain there isn't really "Someone" out there just for me.

I've slowly learned that i hurt people without even trying.

Perhaps i would have had better luck if i was meant to be with someone...

But... i'm not so sure anymore...

All i know is that when she has had enough, she will leave

And I...

I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me.

Once Again

We all Live

We all Die

We die slowly...

No matter what we try...


We love

We lose

Love lost...

Nothing left to do...


We move out

We move on

Some don't...

Just another con


We miss

We mourn

Hearts break...

Mine's torn...


We Like

We Love

We Fly...

On the wings of a dove...


I'm here

Your there

Finding someone is easy...

True love is so, so rare

~Chrish

Vision

My eyes

See All

Monumental Tasks

Miniscule Flinches

Thrusting Blows

Wavering Eyes

You Think

They Miss

Every Thing

Not One

Goes Unnoticed

Your Actions

Your Hesitations

Your Thoughts

Your Dreams

Are Seen

By One

Your Love

As I See Fit

I wake when the sun is preparing to rest

I sleep.... when i find the time

I live my life as the city sleeps

And i sleep... when dreams end

I enjoy the excitement of the bustle

And i rest... whenever it's needed

I love the daily rush of social insanity

I relax... in the middle of the chaos

You live life as directed

I live life... as i see fit

I socialize with my eyes closed shut

And i dream with my eyes wide open

Today

I get the feeling that i should just Abandon ship.

Time is fleeting, So should I?

I can't deal with all the fighting, all the shit.

I stare at this needle, quivering eyes.

Needless to say, I find this useless

Like me, staring in the mirror

It's infuriating, Fucking Rediculous!

Rise from the front, maybe the rear?

The cold of this metal...

The burn of my ink...

It creates a tale, beautiful like a petal

Until i See with my eyes closed... Try to rethink

I Loved yesterday

I fight today

Tomorrow i may,

Love, Fight, or pray?

It's always the same

I fucked up

She went... and came

Another mistake, sign the prenup

Night after Night

I sit in this loveseat

I muster all my might,

and think of days that i may meet,

Someone i don't regret

And can take care of...

The day we met...

I thought maybe... someday... possibly... I'll find love.


Was i wrong?
Help me forgive myself... please?
Take hold of me and ring the gong.
time is up... don't tease.