Death before Dishonor

Personaly
Everything
Ought
Persuade
Liars
Eternally

Against
Rejected
Euthanasia

Justifucations
Under
Secret
Tyranical

People
Awe
Within
Neurotical
Scarity

Beholding
Eirie
Fucked
Overpowerless
Republics
Envying

God
Over
Death

Just Breathe

Yes i understand that every life must end
Uh huh
As we sit alone i know one day we must go
Uh huh
Oh, i'm a lucky man to count on both hands the ones i love
Some folks just have one yet others they got none

Stay with me
Let's just breathe...

Practive others sins, never gonna let me win
Uh huh
Under everything just another human being
Uh huh
Yeah, i don't want to hurt
Theres so much in this world to make me bleed

Stay with me
All i see...

Did i say that i need you?
Did i say that i want you?
Oh, if i did i'm a fool you see
No one knows this more then me
As i come clean

I wonder everyday as i look upon your face
Uh huh
Everything you gave and nothing you would take
Uh huh
nothing you would take...
Everything you gave...

Did i say that i need you?
Did i say that i want you?
Oh, if i did i'm a fool you see
No one knows this more then me
As i come clean

Nothing you would take...
Everything you gave...
Hold me till i die...
Meet you on the other side...

The End

What were all those dreams we shared those many years ago...
What were all those plans we made now left beside the road...
Behind us in the road...

All them friends i always pledged cuz friends, they come and go...
People change as does everything
I wanted to grow old
Just want to grow old

Slide on next to me
I'm just a human being
I will take the blame
But just the same
This is not me
You see
Believe
I'm better then this
Don't leave me so cold
I'm burried beneath the stones
I just want to hold on
I'm not worth your love
Enough
I don't think
There's such a thing

It's my fault
I've been caught
A sickness in my bones
How it pains to leave you here with the kids here on your own
Just don't let me go

Help me see myself
Cuz i can no loner tell
Looking out from the inside of the bottem of a well
It's hell
I yell
But no one hears
Before i disapear
Whisper in my ear
Give me something to echo in my unknown future seer
My dear
The end
Comes near
I'm here
But not much longer...

June 15th, 2010

Fall and Rise

Out and In

Exhale, Inhale

My breath comes quickly

So sudden, i can't catch it

Shallow and mixed

It broths and spits

The Nights seem warmer

But i shiver more then ever

Happy days?

Welcome to the summer of anxiety.

What do we do?

What happens when what we want is far out of our grasp?

When who we wanted is nothing but a memory?

When what we once dreamed is a distant nightmare?

Who knew that reality was just a terrible dream, and if your just a dream... then i am just a dreamer.

Perhaps....

The first girl, and the next, and the next, and the one after that...

all saw me a different way.

The first didn't care.

The second was just trying something new.

The third said i was a mistake.

And the fourth, idk what she thinks of me...

But i fear i am ruining her life slowly...

And it hurts... To protect her, i may need to hurt her.

But i will try to fix things, and if i can't...

Well, i'm done trying.

I'm fairly certain there isn't really "Someone" out there just for me.

I've slowly learned that i hurt people without even trying.

Perhaps i would have had better luck if i was meant to be with someone...

But... i'm not so sure anymore...

All i know is that when she has had enough, she will leave

And I...

I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me.

Once Again

We all Live

We all Die

We die slowly...

No matter what we try...


We love

We lose

Love lost...

Nothing left to do...


We move out

We move on

Some don't...

Just another con


We miss

We mourn

Hearts break...

Mine's torn...


We Like

We Love

We Fly...

On the wings of a dove...


I'm here

Your there

Finding someone is easy...

True love is so, so rare

~Chrish