Fuck

So this is what it's come to eh?

Pathetic....

Mood Music, #2

When the day is done
And my debt is paid
I'll watch as you lie in the bed you've made
And know that you can't change my mind
So self righteous
Condemned me...
While you only fear what you cannot see
And all you claim is your saving lives...

The truth is what will set you free
Why can't you open your eyes and
Tonight i'll set you free
Your persecution sickins me
All i want you to see
Is you contradict all you believe

Now the speak the truth
And save your souls
Can't ruin the lives of those you oppose
And even more you fake this lie
So pray for love
And pray for peace
So much further from lives then your campaign of fear
And all the while you claim to be right...

The truth is what will set you free
Why can't you open your eyes
And tonight i'll set you free
Your Persecution sickins me
All i want you to see is
All you say contradicts what you believe

So laugh at me, and say how i found your pain and suffering
So come to me, and tell me how i desecrate the light
Your messenger, now go tell the world of my fucking heresy
Your watchful eye, you gaze upon me with your hypocrisy....

Mood Music, #1

I think i'm breaking out
I'm gonna leave you now
There's nothing for me here
It's all the same

And even though i know
that everything might go
Go downhill from here
I'm not afraid

Way away away from here i'll be
Way away away from here so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe
Feels to be alone and not believe... anything

You can't stop me now
You can't hold me down
You can't keep me here
I'm on my way

I made it this far now
And i'm not burning out
No matter what you say,
I'm not afraid!

Way away, away from here i'll be
Way away, away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe...
Feels to be alone and not believe... anything

Letting out the noise inside of me...
Every window pane is shattering...
Cutting up my words before i speak...
This is how it feels to not believe...

Letting out the noise inside of me!
Every window pane is shattering!
Cutting up my words before i speak!
This is how it feels to not believe!

Way away, away from here i'll be
Way away, away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe...
Feels to be alone and not believe... ANYTHING!

Chill

Maybe I should just chill the fuck out. Drift from one thing to the next. See how things go in Florida. Who knows, maybe December 12th could be the next step to the rest of my life. We shall see.

What if?

As i lay here in the corner of my bed, naked and content,
I play the game "What if?"
What if there was someone next to me?
Warm and soft
Smooth and Supple
Curled into me and around
My face in her neck
The smell of her hair
My arms crossed in front of her chest,
Breasts filling my palms, Yet not sexually
More so in an act of comfort and security
What if this was the way things were?
What if?

Let's go

Been thinking of leaving as of late, but the dream is finally coming to frutition. Going to florida in December. And if i like it enough, i'm thinking of staying. Get a change of pace. See something that doesn't remind me of old times. Fuck this place. I've earned too many enemies and lost too many friends. Let's start anew.

Fuck Snow

Just when you wonder what could go worse, everything does.

So now I'm alone.

No hope of getting Taylor back, basically ever i'm guessing.

No hope of finding someone new.

No hope of ever experiencing something new in my life.

And then it snows....

Fuck Everthing