Mood Music, #2

When the day is done
And my debt is paid
I'll watch as you lie in the bed you've made
And know that you can't change my mind
So self righteous
Condemned me...
While you only fear what you cannot see
And all you claim is your saving lives...

The truth is what will set you free
Why can't you open your eyes and
Tonight i'll set you free
Your persecution sickins me
All i want you to see
Is you contradict all you believe

Now the speak the truth
And save your souls
Can't ruin the lives of those you oppose
And even more you fake this lie
So pray for love
And pray for peace
So much further from lives then your campaign of fear
And all the while you claim to be right...

The truth is what will set you free
Why can't you open your eyes
And tonight i'll set you free
Your Persecution sickins me
All i want you to see is
All you say contradicts what you believe

So laugh at me, and say how i found your pain and suffering
So come to me, and tell me how i desecrate the light
Your messenger, now go tell the world of my fucking heresy
Your watchful eye, you gaze upon me with your hypocrisy....

Mood Music, #1

I think i'm breaking out
I'm gonna leave you now
There's nothing for me here
It's all the same

And even though i know
that everything might go
Go downhill from here
I'm not afraid

Way away away from here i'll be
Way away away from here so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe
Feels to be alone and not believe... anything

You can't stop me now
You can't hold me down
You can't keep me here
I'm on my way

I made it this far now
And i'm not burning out
No matter what you say,
I'm not afraid!

Way away, away from here i'll be
Way away, away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe...
Feels to be alone and not believe... anything

Letting out the noise inside of me...
Every window pane is shattering...
Cutting up my words before i speak...
This is how it feels to not believe...

Letting out the noise inside of me!
Every window pane is shattering!
Cutting up my words before i speak!
This is how it feels to not believe!

Way away, away from here i'll be
Way away, away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe...
Feels to be alone and not believe... ANYTHING!

Chill

Maybe I should just chill the fuck out. Drift from one thing to the next. See how things go in Florida. Who knows, maybe December 12th could be the next step to the rest of my life. We shall see.

What if?

As i lay here in the corner of my bed, naked and content,
I play the game "What if?"
What if there was someone next to me?
Warm and soft
Smooth and Supple
Curled into me and around
My face in her neck
The smell of her hair
My arms crossed in front of her chest,
Breasts filling my palms, Yet not sexually
More so in an act of comfort and security
What if this was the way things were?
What if?

Let's go

Been thinking of leaving as of late, but the dream is finally coming to frutition. Going to florida in December. And if i like it enough, i'm thinking of staying. Get a change of pace. See something that doesn't remind me of old times. Fuck this place. I've earned too many enemies and lost too many friends. Let's start anew.

Fuck Snow

Just when you wonder what could go worse, everything does.

So now I'm alone.

No hope of getting Taylor back, basically ever i'm guessing.

No hope of finding someone new.

No hope of ever experiencing something new in my life.

And then it snows....

Fuck Everthing

Deperate for changing
Starving for truth
Closer to where i started
Chasing after you..

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all i've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you...

Forgetting all i'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all i've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing i know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And i don't know what i'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose
there's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world
that can change my mind

There is nothing else...
There is nothing else...
There is nothing else...

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
Closer to where i started
Chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all i've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing i know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And i don't know what i'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with a you

Just hanging by a moment here
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment here with you...