I remember

I remember,

When she used to listen
And he used to care.
While they all gave advice
And we would thought it would never end.

I remember,

That day I cleaned the car
You and I were just two kids.
But they were not,
And they didn't know.

I remember,

How it felt when nobody cared
That nobody wanted me, you, they, us, we... around.
When we played hard,
But we were beat harder.

I remember,

The burning sun on my back
Darkness raising my freckles.
God almighty in the sky and the earth,
But not in my soul.

I remember,

When rejection was no longer something that hurt
Just something to be expected.
That they didn't want a boyfriend,
They just didn't want you.

I remember,

When friends were forever
And a promise was worth your soul.
Before jocks were jocks,
And sluts were everywhere.

...I remember...
Do you?

Sleeping on the floor

Drinking in my bed

Mary Jane in the evenings.......

Living away from home

Resting in plain sight

Bent on peace

Willing destruction

I can't decide

Don't think i want to

Welcome to my hell...

Yet my everlasting heaven.

Hazy

Deep thoughts,
Shallow ideas.

Fit to exploding,
Not a drop left.

Always lonely,
Contently surrounded.

Tested faith,
Lost to fate.

Being the bigger man,
Sitting back and watching it play out.

I didn't ask if you wanted to fuck....
I just asked if you wanted to smoke.

Preceding Thoughts

Traditionally unsound
Neither liberal, nor conservative
Hostile environments consume generations.
Lovers, part slowly...
For it is not you who shall recieve this gift
Or the humble guest lurking in the shade
Tis' the lively one, with all those dreams and visions
Truths, lies, just a few of many

Death upon the sand?
Life among the stars?
A little of both?

Was never an option...

For in the end, not now or then, but when,
The time arives, you shall bow
Before your new found strength and weakness

It is I, whom survives on your fears
Your henious actions, your fruitful lies
Which you feed by word of mouth
Without creating a sound
And it is you, who falls beneath my heel

In the end,
It is all a game
And in more general terms,

I'm not putting you under peer pressure....

But it's your turn....

Fuck

So this is what it's come to eh?

Pathetic....

Mood Music, #2

When the day is done
And my debt is paid
I'll watch as you lie in the bed you've made
And know that you can't change my mind
So self righteous
Condemned me...
While you only fear what you cannot see
And all you claim is your saving lives...

The truth is what will set you free
Why can't you open your eyes and
Tonight i'll set you free
Your persecution sickins me
All i want you to see
Is you contradict all you believe

Now the speak the truth
And save your souls
Can't ruin the lives of those you oppose
And even more you fake this lie
So pray for love
And pray for peace
So much further from lives then your campaign of fear
And all the while you claim to be right...

The truth is what will set you free
Why can't you open your eyes
And tonight i'll set you free
Your Persecution sickins me
All i want you to see is
All you say contradicts what you believe

So laugh at me, and say how i found your pain and suffering
So come to me, and tell me how i desecrate the light
Your messenger, now go tell the world of my fucking heresy
Your watchful eye, you gaze upon me with your hypocrisy....

Mood Music, #1

I think i'm breaking out
I'm gonna leave you now
There's nothing for me here
It's all the same

And even though i know
that everything might go
Go downhill from here
I'm not afraid

Way away away from here i'll be
Way away away from here so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe
Feels to be alone and not believe... anything

You can't stop me now
You can't hold me down
You can't keep me here
I'm on my way

I made it this far now
And i'm not burning out
No matter what you say,
I'm not afraid!

Way away, away from here i'll be
Way away, away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe...
Feels to be alone and not believe... anything

Letting out the noise inside of me...
Every window pane is shattering...
Cutting up my words before i speak...
This is how it feels to not believe...

Letting out the noise inside of me!
Every window pane is shattering!
Cutting up my words before i speak!
This is how it feels to not believe!

Way away, away from here i'll be
Way away, away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe...
Feels to be alone and not believe... ANYTHING!